Call it a coping technique, the truth, or just my own way of denial but I can’t say goodbye at funerals. Rachels, looming in the future, is the strongest that I’ve ever felt this way. I’ll see you later is all I can muster in my mind. Later. It’s hope.
My sweet cousin Rachel died on Saturday, 1 week after giving birth to her beautiful daughter Caynah Grace. Caynah is Scott and Rachels third child. Aleah is 6. Bruce is 4. They thought it was a complication from her birth, but autopsy came back with “severe congenital mitral valve prolapse ” that must have caused an arrhythmia. It boggles my mind how someone can have 3 children and no doctor ever catch this problem. Not to mention, she almost died when she was younger and was in the hospital. Just one of those freak things. The things that we are all scared of the most.
Lyle Lovetts Song- “I’m Going To Wait”
Oh My Sister, You’ve gone before me
How I long to be with you.
But through my sorrow, as I remain here
There’s only one thing that I can do
I’m gonna wait, just a little bit longer
I’m gonna pray on bended knee
I’m gonna wait, just a little bit longer
Until my Savior comes for me
I have faith that can move a mountain,
and breater than a mustard see
And if I wait just sa little bit longer
I know my Savior will come for me.
If I die I’ll go to heaven
And my savior I’ll surely sure
But if I wait, just a little bit longer
I know He will come for me.
Laura,
I’m so sorry for your loss. Like you, I cannot believe a doctor never caught this! It’s exactly the same thing I had my surgery for when I was six. She HAD to have a heart murmur. I know murmurs are rather common place now a days, but it’s a doctor’s responsibility to check them out and not just write them off. The negligence just makes the tragedy that much worse. I truly am sorry. I will be praying for you and her precious, precious family.
Much love,
Misty